I get so nervous when I ignore mainstream diet advise in order to cut
most grains and really starchy fruit and dairy and stuff out, I worry
that I will not do well and then they'll say 'see I told you so'.
Went to the doctor though this week and I showed her my old eating
habits with sugars and what the new higher plan I was trying because I
had fallen off the wagon was doing to my sugars. I wasn't even eating
that many unhealthy carbs, some, but not huge amounts, and still getting
sugars of 287.
So now I officially have her advise to drop that and go back to low(er)
carb, which I knew, but because of mental health I am really weird about
dealing with authorities. I keep being afraid it will go on my account
or something and they'll use that to blame me for health problems. THey
already do that with type 2, 'self-induced'.. Eh.. you know, if all
these mental health issues including the binge eating disorder is due to
child abuse, is it self-induced then? I don't think so.. I wonder what
they'd find if they checked how many people who are overweight eat due
to childhood trauma, be it abuse or other causes.
I know what the answer is, I did a lot of research on this in the past
and soon some time I'm going to write about trauma, childhood, and
health problems, both physical and mental! I am probably preaching to
the choir but it's good to write these things out for myself too. BUt at
least I now have an authority willing to stand behind me and officially
give me advise that conflicts with mainstream. Very rare, such doctors.
Written on Fri April 24, 2015
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