Restarting number Umpteen, Diet Soda

 I've finally got the moved done and then I had a HUUUGE fibro chronic fatigue crash and I'm barely managing to keep my job, I'm that tired. I come home and crash, almost no energy to cook. But the few days, maybe 2 weekends, I'm slowly since about 3 months feeling like I can do actually a tiny bit more than just survive. I've made some healthy food in bulk, and once I had enough stocked up to have a reasonable chance to restart keto I did. I don't know how well it will go but before starting keto in the last month I've given up diet soda (I already never drank sugary soda).

It seems to help some with the cravings for carbs but I still crave diet soda. i'm also not using splenda or aspartame or acesulfame K or anything like that. I'm trying to limit the use of sweetener to only stevia in liquid form, not the fake white powder, and to limit that at least a bit. But there are things I need to have in my life, I can not handle a life without sweets, so some artificial sweeteners will be necessary.

I have started sharing my daily tracker, maybe that will help, some accountability like when I go to weightwatchers weigh in, even though I'm not using their plan, their points plan assumes you eat lots of fruit cause it's free (too high glycemic and too many carbs) and punishes fat in food when that's what I need to focus on. With no diet soda and drinking a type of bullet proof coffee with coconut oil I hope I can keep the crazy cravings a bit in check and if I can keep binges to only emotional stuff, not biological cravings, maybe I"ll have a chance.

And I'm learning that still having the same weight of 10 years ago, even though I've always been struggling and people normally gain is at least something. And having been able to control my bloodsugars well enough to at least not need insulin, only metformin, at least is also something.

So, I keep restarting after every binge, after every fibro flare-up, and some people say success is gained with as a start never giving up, so I hope that's true :) 

Written on Sat Nov 14, 2015