The last week I've not been doing well. I've been on this psychotropic
med, Effexor, for quite a while but it is now really starting to mess
with me. I'm having crying fits that last hours, and I feel totally
overwhelmed by everything.
TOmorrow I'm seeing the psychiatrist to see what we can do. how to
adjust doses or change alltogether. With all that I also completely fell
off the wagon for my healthy eating, and even my healthy carb choices.
THe binge eating disorder I was struggling with has roared up a lot
heavier.
Unfortunately I found out my current therapist is leaving the group I am
with :( So now I will have to continue with someone else. And we never
worked enough on the binge eating part. But I did see there is a group
therapy evening on THursdays where i go for therapy where they have a
group for disordered eating. Not just binge eating like me but also
anorexia and bulimia. So I am considering doing that.
Until my meds are balanced again I'm trying to be nice to myself but
still make healthy choices if I can as well, but if I fail I try to not
turn it into a 'my whole day is ruined' thing. That thinking never made
sense to me, even though I did it. I read somewhere on sparkpeople
someone mention that you don't use it when you have a fender bender with
your car, and say 'oh the day is ruined I'm now just going to drive
around causing as many fender benders as I can manage!'. But I used to
do that with eating. That image was an eye opener.
So for now, trying to be nice to self, not get too overwhelmed, and not
give up. Once I get things better balanced I can restart. Also, we're
going to moving in a month, another stressor! no wonder I feel like I
do. But it's not all bad and being in our new place will be nice.
Written on Tues April 14, 2015
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